this mornin’, i was driving to work, typically, i’m rushing against the clock…i swear it’s a conspiracy…the time ticks faster when i need it to slow down..and ticks slower when i need it to speed up. Same for you, right? What the hell is up with that? Personally, I don’t think it’s very cool of Timetown to screw around, especially in the mornin’….it just ain’t right…

anywho….not so typically, this mornin’ i didn’t feel rushed……..

…i’m not sure why exactly, i woke up late, per the usual, i was going off of ’bout 4.5 hours of sleep…but i wasn’t tired. i wasn’t in a hurry. i wasn’t….anything. i was as calm as the fog outside my window….i just felt settled….

i believe the settledness comes from the smile-a-thon i’ve been participating in for the last few weeks…

lately, i’ve been smiling a lot….i mean…a lot, a lot. i always smile….but…lately….it’s been a different kinda smile.

it’s the kinda smile that i smile even when i’m all by my lonesome. in fact, right now, i’m smiling just thinking about it… 😀

i guess…..it’s easier, for me, to smile than to have no expression at all-that’s how i would explain it….and it feels so good….i can’t even explain how good so good is…

why? you may ask….

…..why not?….really….i guess it’s as simple as that…

i’ve hit this peak…within myself……i’ve come to realize there is everything to be happy about. some shit don’t work out…but…oh well. ya know… oh. well. ..cause there’s everything else that does….and there is so much potential in those everything else’s….

….if i could tell you anything it would be to never forget possibility exists….it does…possibility is always possible

….we stumble upon our path, or better yet, paths,  in life……we are so focused on these paths …these ‘this is where i’m goin’s and nothing will get in my ways’…these  ‘i have it all figured outs’…or ‘i don’ts and i needs ta’….well…that’s all gravy and grand, but the reality is….you can’t see your path without light…and you don’t have light without a spark…and you don’t have a spark if you don’t have something to inspire the ignition….

and a flame…a light…..will burn out eventually if you don’t put the effort in to keep it going….

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so…this morning, here i am…smiling…a lot…and i happen upon RTN 615….(ha. if dude only knew his license plate just got blurbbed about 😉 ….)

i couldn’t resist to grab my camera…..

not because i think this is a ‘great shot’…or a ‘perfect picture’….but because of what it represented to me during a time where i, typically, feel most chaotic……

…it made me think back to those good ‘ol days…when time was counted by a golden pocket watch with great-to-grand fathers fathers initials engraved upon the insides….where time took time to polish itself because it had the time to do so……..i felt it….that calm….that.. it might take a thousand hours to arrive….but it’s ok…cause there’s no reason to rush….

there’s no reason to force time to slow down or quicken up…it’d be coo, i will say…however, i believe, the point is, to s.l.o.w. down. to…ease off the gas…..to appreciate that quiet place in between now and when you get there…i find so much pleasure in the in betweens…..it’s where my smile gets its fuel…

.. 🙂

i admit. i reach sometimes. 🙂

….like i’m go-go gadget or some shit….. 🙂 🙂

but i’m serious. when you really stop to think about it. why are we in such a hurry to get everything over with….?

that includes those things we have yet to even start….

we forget to enjoy the journey…for it is the  journey that is the light…

….i have to constantly remind myself of this….of course, it takes discipline….and patience. ..fittingly, those two things that i have yet to fully grasp…..so..i guess..until that happens. i will just…reach.

…..my hands are open….they’re pretty damn flexible…but their grip just isn’t strong enough yet…..yet.

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i welcome reaching…it shifts my perspective…..

….or i guess you could say, it helps me see in the dark.

How it all ties together somehow: 

 

…..whoa. my mind is nuts….

🙂

well…..at least i’m smilin’…..

😀

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